Monday, 30 December 2013

30 December 2013 ~ HAPPY NEW YEAR; REMEMBERING MUM AND DAD


30 December 2013 ~ HAPPY NEW YEAR; REMEMBERING MUM AND DAD
 

 

Once again the incredibility of the internet has surpassed itself tonight; for me, at least.  Whilst casually dithering in my garage and listening to CBC radio (Canada’s version of the BBC) I realised that I was listening to a show about Paul Simon and his album ‘Graceland’.  As one does (on more occasions than willing to admit), the mind leap-frogs from one thought to another thought... and so one.  The short story; I ended up here after a little bit of clicking of the proverbial mouse.  Which, in turn, inspired me to write. 

It is 1978.  My parents have returned from Nigeria and I am home on leave.  My dad was working on a contract in Nigeria and he loved it. This was very clear; I mean he really loved it!  For a man that played his cards very close to his chest, the unbridled joy that could be literally heard from the gleam in his eyes, when regaling me of his time in Nigeria, was more than self-evident.  He would play his album, Ipi Tombi, constantly.  I never got out there, but my sister, Joyce, did.  I was serving in the Royal Air Force in, what was, West Germany, at the time.  As mentioned in my very first blog (Tuesday, 8 May 2012 ~ ABBREVIATE OR AMPLIFY?) about my mum’s passing, I brought home her life; her photographs and her music.  That music, of course, was also my dad’s music.  One of those albums was Ipi Tombi; a 1974 musical by South African writer Bertha Egnos Godfrey, and her daughter, Gail Lakier, telling the story of a young black man leaving both his village and his young wife to go and work in the mines of Johannesburg.  The album originated from a marvellous musical show.  The show was originally called The Warrior, and I think it may have been a variety of South(?) African indigenous musical styles, but I’m no expert.  The link I have inserted above is the musical track called The Warrior.  I cannot speak of the lyrics with any professionalism; but I can speak of the music and how, at just 20 years old, I could understand how my father was moved by its rhythm.  It was the reason that I bought Graceland, by Paul Simon, in the 1980’s.

Perhaps it is because of the time of year; New Year’s Eve beckons, and who doesn’t dwell in some sort of reflection at such a time?  I know I do, and I do often; not just because of New Year.  So here I am, suddenly caught in a moment of emotional nostalgia.  It is joyous and painful at the same time.  Because getting older means that the ‘elders’ are diminishing and people of my generation have to fill their ‘shoes’, as will those behind us in years to come.  

My parents have long since left us.  So here is my message to anyone that’s still reading; listen to this musical track that I have linked to this blog.  You may not enjoy it but I hope it prompts you to take stock of who’s around you; whether that be an annoying parent or relative or neighbour.  Remember that the young man in this song is leaving his ‘home’.  Take one more look at someone; only this time, take a photograph.  Make sure to develop that photograph in your mind and also in your heart; if you’re really lucky it may become a video.

There are many people I miss that are no longer with us.  But I have to tell you that on this night, on this 364th day of 2013, I would love to be sitting next to my dad whilst listening to Ipi Tombi’s The Warrior at maximum volume and wait for my mum to come in to the room and tell us to “turn that bloody noise down”.

Happy New Year!  Take your photograph(s)… and turn up the volume.

 

 

 

 

Sunday, 8 September 2013

COLLEGE, LIFE; SHOW UP AND CARE


 
 


I have just completed my first week as a college instructor.  I am teaching there on a short contract in the aviation maintenance programme.  As you may already know, teaching/training is not new to me; I have been training professional aircraft maintenance engineers (AME’s) for over twelve years.  I have trained them all over Canada, in the United States, Mexico, Ecuador and, as recently as this July, Kazakhstan.  There have been challenges with respect to language; especially in Kazakhstan.  This, currently, is a whole new challenge; students that have not long graduated high school.
What is most interesting for me about this new challenge is the knowledge level.  I have been training professional AMEs who already possess a significant foundation of aviation maintenance knowledge and experience.  However now I am training a class that doesn’t fully understand the basics of aviation; port and starboard, fwd and aft, axis of aircraft, how to cut and file sheet metal with ‘self-aplomb’ and so forth.  This is not a bad reflection on them; this is the reality of where they currently are.  They are just embarking on their career in aviation maintenance and have much to learn.  And it is here is that I face my biggest challenge; the delivery of information that is new to a student body that does not have a foundation of knowledge on which to build from; I am helping them in the building of that foundation.  For years I have trained on the premise of knowledge and experience and now, for the first time, it is simply not there.  I, as their instructor, have much to learn; a new way to deliver the information, a new way to communicate with a younger class demographic.
The fascinating fundamental fact of life is this; there are those that care and there are those that don’t.  It is clear to me, at this early stage, that some of the students sincerely wish to make a career in aviation and are paying their way through a college education in order to attain this; they care.  However there are also a small minority of students that, perhaps, have parents that are paying for their college education because they want their offspring to have a college diploma; and it is here I see a great divide.  For some, the price of entry is great.  For others it is not.  For those that are paying their way I can see a great commitment, but some appear to be here just for the ride, and this is completely new to me.
All of the training I have delivered for over a decade has been to professional AMEs that want to be in the classroom and want to learn about a new aircraft and its systems.  They want to know because they need the qualification on their AME Licence so that they can sign a release to return the aircraft, safely, back in to service after maintenance; a great responsibility that must never be taken lightly.  It is imperative to them that they know, understand and graduate a particular aircraft ‘Type’ course.  They care.
So now, for the first time, I am actually training a few that do not buy-in to that philosophy.  They sometimes don’t show up, or they leave early without letting me know; when the break is over and it is time to start up again, they are simply not there! 
You have to show up!  It doesn’t matter what it’s for; you have to show up.  Showing up is half the battle and it is the first half.  You cannot achieve the second half before the first half.  Show up.  Show up for work, school, your kid’s dance recital or sports tournament, perhaps that sermon on Sunday.  Show up for that job interview.  Show up for that study group, that debate.  Show up to cast your vote.  Show up for the day.  You can’t spend the day and not show up; how will you get anything accomplished?
It is important that I do not take this personally.  As a professional it is incumbent on me to show up every day and deliver the knowledge.  It is imperative that I show up as if everyone wishes to buy-in to that all-important philosophy that aviation maintenance is a profession that requires a strong level of caring about their craft; to produce work that exemplifies and compliments the history of aviation.  Yes, I do care; and I care immensely.
Caring; some will, some won’t.  I will not stop caring.  And I will show up.
 
 
 

Sunday, 4 August 2013

JOURNEY INTO KAZAKHSTAN; SHYMKENT


 15 of the 20 students that presented me with gifts 


It is a beautiful early Sunday morning.  I am enjoying a coffee on my back yard patio as the sun makes its appearance over the horizon.  I can hear our local cardinal chirping away in a tree; such a lovely sound.  A skein of Canada Geese have flown over in their usual ‘V’ formation whilst calling out words of encouragement to the leader.  And me?  I have just returned home from my latest assignment and I am starting to reacquaint myself with the location of the light switches.  My lovely bride, Jane, is still sleeping and so is my 18 year old daughter, Alex.  My 24 year old son, Martin, is at his Royal Canadian Air Force base out in British Columbia and my 19 year old daughter, Zoe, is in Montreal with some of her friends enjoying a music festival this weekend.  All feels right with the world this morning.
A little bit of information on the place where I spent a total of 28 days; founded in the 12th century, Shymkent was built as a ‘caravanserai’ to protect the Silk Road town of Sayram, 10 km to the east.  What is a caravanserai?  And what is the Silk Road?  A caravanserai is a place where travellers could rest after their long day’s journey.  The Silk Road is a historical network of inter-linking trade routes across the Afro-Eurasian land-mass that used to connect east, south, and western Asia with the Mediterranean and European parts of the world, and also parts of north and east Africa.  It includes routes that take you through Syria, Turkey, Iran, Turkmenistan, Uzbekistan, Kyrgyzstan, Pakistan and China.  A city in the Kazakh Desert, Shymkent grew as a market centre for trade between Turkic nomads and the settled ‘Sogdians’ (an ancient civilization of Iranian people).  The place is steeped in history, and it was destroyed many times; including by Genghis Khan from neighbouring Mongolia.  Kazakhstan is a bigger country than I envisioned it to be; in fact it is so large that the distance from one end to the other is about the same as from London, England to Istanbul, Turkey and it is, literally, the crossroads of Europe and Asia.
What of my ‘Journey in to Kazakhstan’?  Well, I left my home in Ontario, Canada for Shymkent, on Thursday 4 July 2013; I arrived the evening of Saturday 6 July and I was bloody knackered!  I was taken to the wrong hotel by the taxi driver whilst his car stereo blasted out some kind of foreign music much louder than was necessary.  The ‘hotel’ was, quite frankly, an awful dwelling.  I am not a snob by any means, but this was not a good place to be and I didn’t feel safe.  So my first impression of Kazakhstan was not too good.  Thankfully this error was corrected in short order and I was only in the building for about an hour.  Unpacking for my month-long stay was not an option for me.  I should say, though, that the staff were great at the correct hotel, the Canvas Hotel, which became my home for all of July.   A lot of them spoke some English and they all were friendly, courteous and articulate.
As for me; I am used to being away for a couple of weeks at a time in my line of work.  It just seemed to be longer than the four-plus weeks on this particular assignment; perhaps it was just the distance and the travel time.  When you add in to the equation the language barrier, the culture gap, the intense heat and lack of rain, the most anarchic drivers on the roads I have ever encountered, the smog, the car horns that never seem to stop as well as the noxious and smoke-laden exhaust fumes that take your breath away, the dangerously uneven and unkempt sidewalks, the deep roadside gutters that could break a leg in the blink of an eye and the near-misses we had with cows wandering on the road.  What an experience!  I had a bit of a tough time adapting to this new culture and way of life initially.  In all of my travels I have never felt so much like a ‘fish-out-of-water’ as I did when I arrived in Kazakhstan. 
Shymkent was almost like being in a time-warp of sorts; the fashion appeared similar to that of the 1980s.  Regarding communication; internet cafes are everywhere and they always seem to be busy.  The majority of the mobile phones that I saw were just that; mobile phones as opposed to smart phones.  Most of the vehicles, including a bus or a large truck (called a lorry back in England) are also dated in their design.  For a country that reclaimed its independence from the USSR back in 1991, and is moving forward with its modernistic progress, everything appeared to be somewhat ‘out-of-date’.  I am sure that in another ten years Kazakhstan will have changed dramatically from what it is today.  Kazakhstan’s economy is quite strong in comparison to many of its surrounding neighbours, and is making head-way in developing commercial and trade relations with ‘western’ countries.  You could almost classify Kazakhstan as ‘an advanced developing nation’ with great potential in its future; but currently is still very much a ‘work in progress’.
A number of the students asked me if I would return to Kazakhstan to conduct future training.  My answer was yes.  I now have a better understanding of the distance travelled, the 10-hour time change and the effect they both have on the body.  Initially, during my first 2 weeks, I was going non-stop; my thoughts were such that I ruled out ever returning to Kazakhstan.  However if I were to go back I would, at the very least, know what I was going in to and therefore the ‘shock factor’ has now been eliminated.
I was training for over 3 ½ weeks; 6 days a week with Sunday off.  Whilst acquainting myself with the material content, I noticed opportunities to enhance the product for future courses.  But as with anything new, there will always be improvements and adjustments along the way.  With a large class of 20 students, I found it hard to engage them all in English whilst teaching.  I didn’t feel as if everybody understood me; however I applaud their due diligence and willingness to learn.  I was pleased to see that everyone passed all three of their exams.  One student did fail an exam, but comfortably passed the re-write.  There is no way I could learn all this technical ‘stuff’ in a language I don’t fully understand, yet they did.  But I’ve got to tell you; oh, how I wished I could have engaged them more than I was able to.  It is that engagement that I, as an instructor, thrive on. 
At the end of the classroom theory element, the students presented me with gifts of appreciation for my hard work; it was nice to be acknowledged for my efforts and it was a lovely surprise!  I was presented with an authentic traditional Kazakh male ‘shapan’ (robe) with matching ‘kalpak’ (hat) and a traditional Kazakh horse-whip that is used when playing a fierce game called Buzkashi; it is a game on horseback that is similar to polo but instead of a ball they use the carcass of a headless goat – I’m not kidding!  Also, they bought me a small replica of the traditional Kazakh musical string instrument called a ‘dombra’.  I was truly touched by their generosity and appreciation.
A couple of the students took me for a tour of their home town after we had finished training one night.  These two gentlemen showed me some of the better things that Shymkent has to offer.  They are very proud of the progress that their country has made since 1991, which was the fall of the Soviet communist rule.  And it was with great pride that they took me to Independence Park; this park was built in 1993 to celebrate this historic moment in their nation’s history.  In fact, this city has over twenty parks; some of them are quite magnificent.  I was amazed to see so many people out at such a late hour of the night at Independence Park.  It was well after midnight, but the parks were all lit up and families with small children were out and about doing regular family activities.  The guys told me that in the summer months, because of the heat of the day, families sleep during that time and come out at night.  This would also explain all of the busy bazaars and markets that I saw that night.  They also took me for a drink of kvass, which is a very popular beverage; it is a fermented drink made from black or regular rye bread and it tasted quite sweet but palatable, even for my fussy tastes.  Although Shymkent is not a tourist location, it became apparent on that night, that there was more to this city than I had been exposed to thus far; I enjoyed my late night sightseeing tour and I enjoyed the company of my two hosts, Danijar and Saken.  It is a shame my first impressions were based on the worst things that this city had to offer.
On my return home to Canada I was able to go for a walk-about in Almaty because I had a 17-hour layover.  The city is situated in the foothills of the Zailisky Alatau Mountains and the view is as beautiful as that of the Rockies when viewed from places like Vancouver or Burnaby, British Columbia.  The old hotel that I stayed in for my Almaty layover was a Soviet designed building that was quite old.  It had the classic big grey-stone appearance of the old Soviet authoritarian machine from a bygone era.  Cozy, it was not; neither was it quiet.  I was able to stop the in-window air conditioner from making so much noise by removing a few ‘parts’ from it (purely temporarily) and replaced the noisy beggars before I checked out.  I didn’t care for the colour of the water that came out of the taps in the bathroom either.  What was nice, though, was that my hotel was situated close to Panfilov Park.  In the park is Zenkov Cathedral, a 19th-century Russian Orthodox cathedral and it is the second tallest wooden building in the world; it was painted in bright colours, which made it look rather odd in comparison to its surroundings.  What did surprise me was how close this part of Kazakhstan is to the China and Mongolia border; I was a lot further east than I realised.
I regret that this was not one of the more iconic memories of world travel in the court-of-self-opinion; but that first hotel in Shymkent didn’t help the cause either.  The whole experience got off to a bad start and it never really recovered from it.
As I look back, in retrospect, I was very limited in what I could do with my down-time because of the language barrier; I neither read nor speak Russian or Kazakh and so I was rendered helpless because both of these languages have an alphabet that I could not decipher.  I felt like I was living in a world of pseudo-dyslexia. 
To sum it all up; I am too ‘Westernised’ as an individual.  To put it bluntly; I am spoilt rotten in my current lifestyle.  Although Kazakhstan’s economy is strong, a lot of what I saw there I found to be wanting based on the living standards that I have become used to.  This country is worlds apart from what my family and I live in.  This was definitely an eye-opening life experience.
Having been there and seen it for myself, having endured the intense heat and bright sun, having only been away a mere 28 days, I have come to  deeply appreciate the sacrifice paid by our serving men and women in the armed forces; particularly in places like Afghanistan and Iraq.  They don’t get to come home after 28 days; they don’t get to stay in a decent hotel with its amenities.  They do get to put in longer days than I had to and they do get to constantly have to be on their guard as they watch their backs and the backs of their brothers-and-sisters-in-arms; and they don’t offer up the constant ‘belly-aching’ that I have produced in my daily Facebook posts and also, in part, in this blog.  I have ‘roughed it’ myself on many occasions whilst serving twelve years in the Royal Air Force.  Of course, I was much younger then; but I never had to endure the intense heat of the desert whilst carrying around a full-pack and a rifle with the constant awareness that something could go terribly wrong at any given moment.  My honest, sincere and heart-felt respect goes out to each and every one of these brave men and women; come home safe.
 
 



Saturday, 15 June 2013

16 June 2013 ~ FATHER’S DAY; PHASE 1, PHASE 2, PHASE 3, PHASE 4


16 June 2013 ~ FATHER’S DAY; PHASE 1, PHASE 2, PHASE 3, PHASE 4


Dad & Me - Christmas 1993
 
 
I was born in Liverpool, England, at a very early age; about twelve months before my first birthday, as I recall.  This was the beginning of Phase 1 of my Father’s Day experiences; me, as a son, celebrating my own father.  I was blessed with many, many years of this; but still there weren’t enough of them.  I adored my dad; however we were never really close.  It wasn’t that we didn’t get along with each other.  My dad simply had his world and I was not as much a part of it as I would have liked.  Again, please don’t get me wrong here, I wasn’t ignored or abused; where I grew up it was just that way.  All the same, I enjoyed celebrating Father’s Day Phase 1, with my dad.
Phase 2 was way too short.  Cruelly short.  When my son started his Phase 1, I moved on to my Phase 2; now I was celebrating my dad’s Father’s Day whilst enjoying my son celebrating my Father’s Day.  Good times.  Phase 2 started on 28 October 1989 when my first child, Martin, was born and ended on 1 February 1994; not even five years.  Phase 2 ended when my dad passed away.  I was on an overnight flight back to England from Canada when he died.  I didn’t make it back in time.  My dad had moved on to Phase 4 before I got a chance to say goodbye.
My Phase 3 started as soon as Phase 2 ended.  Now I can only enjoy Father’s Day through my own three children’s celebration; and they are all adults in their own right now.
So once a year you get a celebratory day's chance to say “I love you, dad”.  But remember which phase you are in because, before you know it, one phase will end.  And when Phase 2 ends it is the most saddest ending of all for a man, or a woman for that matter.  I can only speak for a man because it is a pre-requisite (biologically speaking) for being a dad.  I am sure it is the same for the ladies and Mother’s Day.  But I am a man and this is my blog, so it is all about the Father for this writer, on this day of days.
So what is Phase 4 you may ask?  Those who know me, or who have read any of my writings, know that I am a man of faith.  Phase 4 is celebrated every day with our Father.  You know the one; our Father, who art in heaven.  And with Him are many, many fathers who I hope are still receiving messages and thoughts from the Phase 3 guys; the message is, of course, “I love you dad”.
To all of you fathers out there; Happy Father’s Day!


Saturday, 1 June 2013

1 Jun 2013 ~ TIME; AND TIME AGAIN


1 Jun 2013 ~ TIME; AND TIME AGAIN


Alex Freeman ~ Class of 2013
- St. Clair High - 
 
It has been a nice break; not writing a blog for the month of May.  Now that I have finished my commitment to write two blogs a month for a whole year, I am in a position to write when I feel the need.  And I do feel the need often!  However the luxury of time is not always on my side due to work commitments.  So it was, indeed, a nice break for me to not be committed to writing two blogs a month during May.  But here we are on the first day of June and I can wait no longer!
I think I am quite good with my time management, but not as good as I could be.  I’ve read books about it, I’ve been to seminars about it, yet still it seems to elude me; this time management thing.  My weakness on this score can be defined in one simple word; balance.  I still can’t seem to get the balance right.  I seem to be ‘all-in’ on one particular ‘thing’ and other ‘things’ have to wait to get my attention.  Why is that?
Today my focus is on my youngest daughter, Alex.  Today is her prom.  Big day!  As I type, Alex and her mom (my lovely bride, Jane) are at the hairdressers.  Later it will be time for her big sister, Zoe, to do her make-up and then it will be time to dress in full regalia for the photo-shoot in the back garden.  After that, there will be the customary ‘pre-prom-party’, then more photos with the graduation class ‘under the bridge’ where the beautiful blue waters of Lake Huron make their way down the St. Clair River towards Lake Ontario.  Then the ‘real’ party begins; Ally will be making her way on to the ‘party bus’ and us old farts make our way back home.  The graduates will ‘cruise and booze’ on the party bus before heading to St. Clair High School for their actual prom dance.  After that it is more partying at the ‘post-prom-party’ until dawn.  Such is the life of youth!
I do feel old; running out of time.  I still have so many things I want to accomplish.  It is definitely time for me to focus on the balance thing.
This month of June is going to be a busy time.  Jane’s mum, Brenda, will be flying in from England.  Our son Martin will be flying in from British Columbia; I haven’t seen him in almost a year.  Jane’s Aunt Sue plus Aunt Pat and Uncle Roger will be visiting with us from the United States; a veritable house full, which means that good times await!  My sister’s daughter, Britni, is getting married to a fine young man, Jason and I am the MC for their wedding reception – that could be interesting!  The very next day I celebrate my 55th birthday. 
Once June closes out and everyone goes back home to their normal lives in early July, I will also be hopping on a plane again.  This time I have a long journey ahead of me; Kazakhstan.  I shall be spending three weeks in Shymkent training on the CRJ 200 regional jet for Scat Airlines.  This will be another cultural experience that I can add to my life resume.  It will also be a good time to see my old friend, Vlad, from Moscow again.  We met last year in Düsseldorf and the two of us have developed a good friendship and business relationship over the last twelve months.
I have no choice but to balance my time management in June.  Perhaps it will be a good lesson for me to learn.  Much work and preparation to do for Kazakhstan.  Other clients’ projects to be taken care of.  Golf to be played with Martin.  Time to be spent with all the family as we gather for the first time in a year.  Summer chores; oh yes, there are loads of them.  You should see Jane’s list – well, actually it is my list now.
The most important thing, through all of the events for June, will be to remind myself of that old and wise saying; “wherever you are – be there”.  Enjoy that precious moment that you’re in and do not concern yourself with the other ‘things’ until it is time to focus on them.  Plan well and keep your eye on the ball called ‘balance’.
As I sit here with my morning coffee out on the deck in the back yard, I am reminded of what time it is right now; it is time to go back inside because it is starting to rain!  Fingers crossed for Ally; I hope that her special Prom Day doesn’t get her too wet; and that a good time is had by all.  The time has come for Alex to start the building up of experiences for her own life resume.
So that’s it; my first blog after a bit of a break.  Today it is all about Alex and her prom and about being in the moment and enjoying every last drop of it – always; time and time again.

Sometimes you will never know the value of a moment until it becomes a memory ~ Dr. Seuss

Wednesday, 10 April 2013

10 April 2013 ~ TREES; TENACITY, PERSISTENCE, GROWTH

10 April 2013 ~ TREES; TENACITY, PERSISTENCE, GROWTH


I have come to take great joy in the simplest of things; trees.  I love their tenacity to grow in to these big, strong entities.  As a boy I took pleasure in climbing them and as a man I take pleasure in their majestic, symmetric stance. 
When travelling (on the ground) I am always fascinated by them; whether huddled together in woods, groves and forests or when proudly standing in the middle of a field where their exuberance stands, solitarily, for all to see.
A lot can be learned from trees.  For example, in order to grow so tall, broad and strong, it takes a great deal of work that is not seen by the eye; underground is a root system that ensures the stability of its future growth.  They have to dig down deep and secure themselves whilst striving to reach for the sky.  Another example is the fruit they bear.  If you want the fruit of the tree you have to move away from the stability of the strong, secure trunk of the tree to get it.  The lesson learned?  To enjoy some of the fruits of life, you will have to go out on a limb in order to get them. 
Mother Nature, it seems, is always trying to tell us things.  I am not sure what her message is regarding her persistent insistence to ‘torture’ us all with this ongoing and seemingly never ending winter that is ever present here in Ontario, Canada.  Perhaps she is teaching us about persistence itself; from acorns, do mighty oak trees grow.
Regarding persistence; I have often found it difficult to make (or take) the time to write the two blogs a month that I committed to when I started going public with my writings last year in May of 2012.  Now, as I look back over the year, I am quite proud of myself for my own tenacity.  It is that tenacity which has afforded me the persistence to actually do it.
Looking back, I have done what I said I would do.  Looking forward, I am not going to commit to doing the same for the following twelve months.  Why?  I truly am far busier than I ever thought I would be.  I have had the good fortune, over the past year, to enjoy travel, teaching, speaking engagements and the ability to commute downstairs to my home office and work on many projects for clients, in the aviation industry; a lucky man by all accounts.
My tenacity for work has led me down a path I did not expect; a tremendous work-load that requires more of my time than I had initially wanted or expected.  Just as a tree is symmetrically balanced, I need to work on having balance in my life.  Ahead, I see a lot of travel and busier times.  It is for that reason I will not make the same commitment for the coming year.  I still hope to write, but I will not commit to two blogs being published every month.  I don’t even know if this stuff gets read!  Well, that’s not strictly true; I am astounded that people all over the world are reading this dribble.
The tree is patient in its growth and I, too, have to be patient in my quest to be able to write for a living.  Though it may not happen, it will always be my dream and I will never give up on it. 
Just as a strong wind will take down a tree if it has not got sufficient roots underfoot in its foundation, so it is for me; my foundations for a better life require self-discipline, focus on the task in-hand and most importantly it requires balance.  I cannot allow the winds of change to blow me off course or, worse still, blow me over so that I lie on the ground with my inadequate roots exposing my lack of stability for my own future personal and professional growth.  
Growth takes time and patience; and it would appear that getting through this winter requires the same!
 

Friday, 5 April 2013

6 April 2013 ~ CHAMPION, ALDINITI; LIFE






It was thirty-two years ago on Saturday, 6 April 2013, that a gentleman by the name of Bob Champion (incredibly apropos last name) won the Grand National on a marvellous horse named Aldiniti.  The race actually took place on Saturday, 4 April 1981, at Aintree racecourse in my old hometown of Liverpool. 

First, I want to briefly talk about the time before the race with a few things of note here…
  • Bob Champion had been diagnosed with cancer and went through chemotherapy and recovered.
  • Aldiniti spent six months in his stable with a plaster cast on his leg because of injury; a vet had even recommended he be humanely put to sleep because he would probably never race again.
  • The Grand National is a gruelling race in which horse and jockey have to jump over thirty fences, some of them brutal, on a circuit that runs just longer than four miles; a true test of stamina, courage and focus.

They even made a movie; it is called ‘Champions’.  A great name for a movie because horse and jockey were both champions of the highest calibre.

In April of 1984 a young man took a young lady on a date.  It was their first date.  They went to the movies.  They watched a movie called Champions.  They already knew, within their own hearts, that they were in love with each other and had to find their way through the clumsiness of youth to share how they felt.  They failed.  They broke up for about twelve months before he had the courage to ask her out once again.  He had to get over the death of someone he already loved and would never come back.  She felt that she could not compete with a woman who was already dead.  Such is life (and death); complicated, confusing, complex.

I was that young man.  That young lady was, and is, my lovely bride of over twenty-six years.  I cannot speak for my wife, but that movie touched me in a way I had never been touched.  It showed me, for the first time in my young life, how to face adversity.  In this movie I was watching Bob Champion go through what we all wish to avoid; cancer, and the treatment.  He went through that treatment, whilst a horse that could have been put down was trapped, literally, in a box for half a year.  And they both stuck with it and came through.  But here’s the thing; they not only came through, but they went on to win one of the most famous horse races in the world.  There is not a single horse-racing fan that has not heard of the Grand National, I would wager!

You can pay good money to go and listen to a voice of value at a seminar (and there is nothing wrong with that) to find inspiration for ones’ self.  Or you can spend about $10.00 on Amazon and buy this movie.  Not only is the movie a wonderfully up-lifting true story, but the musical score is an almost eclectic mix of James Horner’s work on Titanic and the work of Vangelis with Chariots of Fire.  The music is simply uplifting as a stand-alone item; but combined with the story in this movie it is elevated way beyond that.

I cannot be certain, but this movie may be the reason that I have the life I enjoy today.  It showed me how to have courage even when unsure and afraid.  It showed me that we all have our road-blocks in life and that we have to work around them or plow through them; you decide.  It showed me to never give in; I believe that one of my mentors, Sir Winston Churchill, said the very same thing during the adversity of World War Two.  It showed me that just when you think it is over; done and dusted, it is not because you get yourself up and you dust yourself down and by the Lord God Almighty you move forward and you go on. 

Onwards and upwards!

Sunday, 24 March 2013

24 March 2013 ~ VIVA LOS MARRIOTT EL AEROPUERTO TORONTO


 
 

Vacation.   Such a lovely little noun; and we have already set off on our little noun.  As I type, Mr. & Mrs. Steve and Helen Knowles, along with my lovely bride, Jane, are all sitting by the Toronto Airport Marriott Hotel pool surreptitiously sipping virtual coffee (which is really booze in a coffee cup).  We are doing this for a reason; we suspect that we are all on double-secret probation by the hotel staff.  Why, you ask?  Because they have already come by to see us and to tell us to stop drinking beer out of glass bottles by the hot-tub; yet the only people here are us!  We are behaving ourselves and we are being quiet; in fact we really are just enjoying some quiet time!  And then Jane went to the washroom, only to report back to us all that she was followed by a pair of shoes (that’s all she could see from under the toilet door), the shoes were definitely dressed for business purposes.  The shoes walked in, walked around and walked out; never to be seen again. 
There is now grave concern within our group that my Marriott Silver status could be in jeopardy.  Are they treating us like this because I used my points and not real cash?  One will never know, but we got a really good deal on the parking!  Hopefully Steve’s truck will still be here when we get back from Cancun.
Well, time is of the essence and we have already over-shot our ‘beddingtons’ dead-line; our plan was to have enough virtual coffee by 7:00PM in order hit the sack and get up at 2:00AM for the shuttle bus to the airport terminal, and then catch our 6:00AM flight to Mexico.  So I am wrapping this up with an abrupt Adiós.  Between the four of us, we have had a chuckle trying to put this blog together before leaving Canada.
And so this blog will be closed out by Mr. Steve Knowles himself; and I quote…
LOL, LOL, LOL the end.

Friday, 15 March 2013

15 March 2013 ~ SPONTANEITY; ON DEMAND




 
 
 
 

I seem to be in a rather philosophical mood this afternoon.  I am about to stare my 55th birthday in the face in just a few short months and for some reason a part of my brain has kind of been fired up.  It’s okay; it’s not a sense of middle-aged urgency or mid-life crisis.  In fact I’m not sure if I have even had a mid-life crisis; well, maybe it was the sunroof on my minivan, but I’m really not sure.  Anyway the point is this; I have been so darned busy lately that I haven’t had much time to do something that most men don’t enjoy doing, and that is something called thinking.  I like to think.  Maybe that’s why I like to write.  After all, if you’re not thinking then there’s bugger all to write about.  If I want to publish two blogs a month in my quest to become a better writer, then I have to be more disciplined in allowing myself some thinking time.  Instead of waiting for inspiration, I think I might have to adopt a more ‘on demand’ approach.  It would be great to just be able to sit and wait for it to happen but I can’t; there’s too much on the go in my life.
 
So anyway; I am thinking about how good a life I have.  Other than being a bit of an orthopedic train-wreck I appear to be in relatively good health.  I certainly hope that I am not tempting providence with that remark!  But really; except for the bit of my thigh bone that is attached to my C5 and C6 vertebrae with a metal plate and some associated hardware, my fractured ribs (which are healing nicely, by the way) and my new right prosthetic knee, I would have to say that all is well.  I am certain it is better to be in a bit of pain here and there than to actually have a serious illness.  Pain can be dealt with ‘on demand’ whereas as an illness can be very much an ongoing thing.
 
I don’t know if it still is written on the back of English bank notes; but as I recall it used to say something like “I promise to pay the bearer, on demand…” which is essentially an IOU (I owe you) for whatever amount the bank note was for.  What does all this mean?  I haven’t a clue; I just thought there was a theme growing here with this ‘on demand’ thing.  It has cropped up about three times so far and I haven’t even finished typing!  Once again I digress.
 
Back to my philosophical thoughts about my life thus far; absolutely no complaints from this writer, I can tell you.  I love my life and all its surprises.  If you can get this far and still be married to the same ‘hot chick’ and have three children that have all grown up relatively normal (at least by my standards), and everyone still has a sense of humour as well as a sense of purpose, then it can’t be all bad, can it.  I have swallowed up so much joy, to date, that it’s a wonder I don’t have indigestion of sorts! 
 
On demand is definitely the way to live, I think.  It has this sort of spontaneity to it.  How sad it would be if one was living a life that had spontaneous surprises at regularly scheduled intervals.
 
Well I think that’s it for now.  Whatever part of my brain that ‘fired up’ has now somehow ‘fizzled out’.  That’s enough ‘on demand’ for me, for now.  So, until my next regularly scheduled, yet spontaneously written blog later this month; I have to get back to work.  There’s a scheduled dead-line I have to meet!

 

 



Friday, 15 February 2013

15 February 2013 ~ NOW; A MOMENT IN TIME

15 February 2013 ~ NOW; A MOMENT IN TIME


 
What a lovely moment; it is now about 9:30 on a Friday evening. That's my living room and I am sitting just out of the left side of the picture. My young ladies, Zoe and Alex, are both working and my lovely bride, Jane, is at the gym. Because I am not as active as they are yet, I sit here with my laptop, enjoying my fourth can of that lovely English beer, Old Speckled Hen; aahhh… Got some vinyl playing; gentle Irish ballads, at that. I would have to say my collection of music is somewhat eclectic in its variety; Vivaldi to Vangelis, Beatles to Bocelli to Bach and so on. Everything but rap I guess; after all, I suppose I have to include my lovely bride’s punk music. But then again, she does tolerate my country music; well, some of it, maybe.
This moment that I am in reminds me of my misspent, but happy youth.  Those years from about 19 to your late 20s are so liberating!  Like any young man of the 1980s, I was always on the go with soccer, the lads, the ladies, most sports really; rock climbing, judo, squash, swimming, etc., etc., etc.  Good, carefree times.  As much as I loved them, and I did, I wouldn’t change where I am now for the world.  What I would give to have my old body back, though.  But wouldn’t we all really!
This moment is special; I can look back on those days of yore whilst basking in ‘what is’ instead of ‘What will happen?’ when wondering about your ‘real’ adulthood that lies ahead beyond, say, 28 years old.  Mine turned out pretty damn good.  I have a great wife of 26 years with my lovely bride, Jane.  I have three fantastic kids that are all adults in their own rite with my son Martin and my daughters Zoe and Alex.  I share my life with some brilliant people that are part nuts, part caring, and part crazy; but always, always, always have my back.
This moment is so comforting right now.  It might be the Old Speckled Hen.  It might be the remnants of my pain-killers.  Wow; it might be both!
Not as much need for pain-killers now.  I’m practically waltzing around the house.  I was even ready to show my physiotherapist the steps to the Foxtrot; probably a good idea, on his part, that I didn’t.  Almost 3-weeks since my total right knee replacement and I only need crutches for longer walks outside the house; inside the house I'm an independent and mobile member of the homestead.  I actually lost about 8 pounds in the first 2 weeks.  My lovely bride said it’s because I couldn’t get to the refrigerator; I love that woman.
Anyway; that’s it for now.  A great moment shared and a second blog published. 

Sunday, 10 February 2013

10 Febraury 2013 ~ NEW RIGHT KNEE; NO PAIN, NO GAIN!


 
 
This blog is basically about my total right knee replacement, or in medical terms, total right knee arthroplasty.  I am writing about this in case there is anyone that is considering this procedure or is even scheduled for it.  Why write about it?  Because I have a blog and it seemed like a good idea!
When I was getting wheeled in to the operating room I was getting very anxious and hyper-ventilating; quite frankly, I was feeling terrified.  I think there was something significant missing from this whole ordeal, and that was my own lack of educating myself more on the subject.  I appreciate that this procedure is somewhat routine, however to the recipient it is a potentially life changing event; and it is also a journey through unchartered waters for me, so my mistake was in my lack of due diligence.  Big mistake!
Let me pass along some advice in your quest of educating yourself; don’t go on You Tube and watch the surgical procedure the night before you are getting it done.  This was a foolish move on my part and probably was the root cause for my distressed state when getting wheeled in to surgery on the gurney.  I had been so busy trying to complete a work project and I had never given myself any time to find out more about what was about to happen; hence my curiosity on the eve of my surgery when I finally had time to focus on it.  In hindsight, as previously mentioned but well worth re-iterating, I should have taken the time to learn more.  I believe in this day and age it is incumbent on the individual to get educated, and I really, really, really dropped the ball on that score.
The reason I had this done was simple enough; pain and lack of mobility.  My years of playing soccer and other sports had paid its toll on my knee.  This surgery was my ninth, and hopefully last, operation on my right knee, so I wasn’t going in totally naïve; I was, however, ill prepared mentally and I only have myself to blame.  Between ACL reconstructions and cartilage tears and ligament damage, this surgery was inevitable.  My right leg was distorted and my knee didn’t look like a knee.  I was bone on bone and the osteoarthritis was painful.  I couldn’t do anything physical, such as a round of golf, without factoring in my current condition.  I knew I would need pain meds and ice and that I would not be as mobile after golf as I was before I played; at least not for a couple of days, and then things would return to their previous ‘natural state’ prior to golfing.
The surgery was on the Monday afternoon and I was discharged on the Wednesday morning.  I felt that was too soon, but I was also glad to get back home.  My wife wheeled me down to the main level of the hospital and dropped off the prescription for the pain killers and blood-thinner shots at the pharmacy.  I was parked in my wheelchair while Jane took my belongings to the car and then pulled up outside the main entrance and returned for me and the meds.  This took about 20 minutes; by which time the pain was invading me and becoming all consuming.  By the time I got in to the car I was getting distressed again because of the pain and my sense of vulnerability.  I immediately took pain meds and we left the hospital.  We stopped to call in to our old friends and neighbours where we used to live when we were in London, Ontario.  Jane had been staying there while I was in the hospital in London.  I made my way in to Marcy’s home and had a coffee and rested for a while.  The pain meds started to lose their effect after about one hour!  I waited a while and then took some more before we set off on the hour-long journey home to Sarnia.  By the time we arrived in Sarnia we made a smart play.  Jane pulled over and gave me more meds.  By the time we got home I was able to get in to our home and sit down.  My daughter, Alex took the photo of my knee that accompanies this blog; 2 days post-op.
My first night at home was a tougher one for Jane than me, I think.  My lovely bride was up a lot and administered ice-packs and meds and changed my pyjamas and the bedding three times due to my sweating from the pain.  I actually felt rested from having some ‘quality’ sleep; something that eluded me for the two nights in hospital.  The events of the night were nothing but a vague dream for me, even though it was reality.
When I woke up it was now Thursday; 3 days post-op.  Thursday was a good day, but Friday was a bad day.  I had my first visit from the physiotherapist on the Saturday.  It went well and I was encouraged to make it back down the stairs to the main floor.  The stairs were scary, which is why I had remained upstairs in my bedroom since I had got home on Wednesday.  But it felt good to be on the main floor with all the family.
As I write this it is Sunday; 2 weeks post-op.  I am now getting around quite well with just one crutch and some weight-bearing.  The key to progressing so well is one word; physiotherapy.  You have to do the exercises and work through the pain.  You absolutely have to bend and straighten your leg.  You have to work the muscle groups in your leg, which was very hard in the beginning.  You make ice your new best friend.  You have to take your pain meds if you are doing your physio as aggressively as I was; I am self-employed and do not have the luxury of taking a lot of time away from work.  But the good news is I can do a lot of work from home if I am not travelling and conducting training.
There is an incredible amount of bruising that runs from my ankle all the way up to my groin almost.  I was told by Jane that it’s a good thing because it is healing.
My staples come out Monday, that should be easy, and I have my first physio outpatient appointment on Tuesday.  The visiting physiotherapist is pleased with my progress.  But holy shit; those first few days post-op were a killer and I will be eternally grateful for pain-killers.  I wish I had been prescribed a few more, but that is really my only gripe; had the pain management been handled a bit better it would have all been much less of an issue.  As for ice; I have used enough ice to sink the Titanic, but it helps immensely.
I am pleased with my range of movement; 96 degree bend, but not so good for extension.  I was told it would take a while before I can get my leg straight.  My strength is pretty good and I’m okay with some weight-bearing but after a while I have to stop that!
The knee feels weird; sort of numb in places on and around the knee-cap.  As I understand it, that will come back with time. 
To sum it up, my “doos & don’ts” would be as follows;
  • Do your due diligence beforehand so you are well informed because this is your responsibility to yourself. 
  • Don’t be afraid to ask for pain meds.
  • Do use lots and lots of ice because it helps a great deal.
  • Do your exercises as soon as possible. 
  • Don’t despair when you try to work the quad muscles in your leg and nothing happens, because it takes a bit of practice to get them fired up again, but they will work. 
Total knee arthroplasty is a painful procedure but I am feeling really good after just two weeks.  If I was given the choice I would not change a thing and I am glad I had it done.  Mind you; I would have told you a completely different story a week ago!